Dekemvri.

Povtorno dekemvri. Povtorno sneg. Povtorno prezivuvanje. Mojata potsvest se soocuva so stvarnosta. Moram da zaspivam. Ne sakam. Moram da se nasmevnuvam. Ne sakam. Moram da ziveam. Ne sakam.
Ne e preuvelicuvanje. Vistina e. Odam po snezen pat i za moment se zaleduvam. Kako snegulka. Mi se zakocuvaat setilata koga ke se prisetam. Koga potsvesta me potseka deka nemam pricina da se raduvam. Koga uste poloso, domot me potseka deka se e poinaku. Koga se sekavam. Koga site me slusaat, a nikoj ne me razbira. Koga goram vo sebe, a se smeam pred svetot.
Ima momenti vo zivotot koga dodeka probuvame da sfatime koi sme, se menuvame I pak sme na pocetokot. Koga dodeka treperime od studot barame podadena raka, a ja odbivame. Koga se nadevame deka realnosta e son, a sonot realnost. Koga se gusime necujno.
Ima zima i sneg i stud. Dekemvri ne mozam da go prespijam. A sepak, od moeto srce studot nikogas ne si otisol. Samo sto vo Dekemvri I fizicki go prezivuvam. I go mrazam. Tolku bolno iskreno

update...

On the 18th the once that woke up early enought had chance to go to church.. The funniest part this day was pirate game.I also had a presentation that was funny beacuase i didnt know what slide is comming next so i was making up things. haha we were running in the sport hall and chasing each other. The night there was a pub of Bulgaria, Irland (i joined Ireland) Germany and Korea. fun as always.

On the 19th was busy.. More than the usual as we had only one break on which i went in town and drank coffee with my darling Orla from ireland. The night we had guest, 97 years old man that have survived 4 concentration logors. It was really sad and i start crying at the end. End of this night with chill out pub and singing songs.

20th. Visit of concentration camp. No words to describe the feeling there. It was spookie as we saw the gas room and the krematorium, pictures of people that didnt had 25 kilos on them, all skin and bons.. =(

Then Linz and nice walk and coffee.. Good day.. Made me realise that i am fortunate to hear this stories and rememeber all people that suffed and once again be grateful for what i have now..

Now.. visiting wine museum.. jummy..

Good night.. Talk to you soon..(last days countdown starts =( )

camp update

So i didnt really find some time to write everyday but i will try to fill now the stuff that i have missed. On Wed we divided ourselfs in special interests group, i took promotion and our task is to organize the main event at the end of the camp, Festival of Nations. We made really cool poster.
On the 15th was our macedonian national pub. We made Sopska Salad and bread with ajvar and cheese. We also brought Smoki, and rakija and gave to the participants. The rakia was good accepted, and wanted. We also showed the Pajdusko dance, and the participants that were in our group learned it really good.



on the 16.07 we were talking about red cross spirit and the most important thing this day was the peace walk. AMAZING.. we were holding candles while we were walking in Langenlois and then we had big camp fire and while we were sitting next to it we were sitting and singing song. Great feeling.


On the 17.07 we went to VIENNA :)))))))) Since words are not enough i will post pics when i will found out how can i create slide show.
At the night it was national day to Eguipt, Italy, Slovakia and China, so i ate pasta, tiramisu, eguiptian dessert (delisious) and also slovakian ´hlebicki´ that i have helped prepare..

yes yes i am having fun here..

pictures pictures

Yes I AM TIRED. and i wanna scream how tired i am, but i am having wonderful time here. Today we went to visit the maire of the city, and he was really really nice. He gave a speech, and he gave us some wine, cause apparently this city is famous for wine and we are going to taste different kinds of wine every day. i got to meet more people and talk more, but my besties so far are the crazy ginger irish girls. One of them is my roomate and they are awesome.
We had presentation of our country and our national society now and it went great. We had good presentation and i am proud of it.

Now we are having some party, and then bed untill tomorrow..

Now some pics. Hope you like it.
Oh by the way if you say twice jaja it means KISS MY ASS in slang german.. hahaha

Summer camp - Austria

Hi all,
since i do not have wifi and i have to use this public pc with german keybord i will write here this next 14 days.
I came in Wien yesterday, checked in some weird hostel that looked like hangar and went sideseeing. It turned out that the hostel in the center so i saw almost all of the main buildings here which were beautiful. I was talking pics but i cannot post them because i am not on my lap top (hopefully i will think how this wifi works).
Today i came in Langenlois and met bunch of people. It seems that it will be wonderful and fun all 14 days because all people have some positive energy. Good vibes. Good =)I am sharing a room with Austrian, German and Irish girl. Ja ja German and German all the time. I might learn something more than danke, bite, ja, jaja (which btw means kiss my ass in a slang).

Oh.. I have learn Irish dance. haha. You get easily tired with this dance.

Well, in short. I am happy that i get to speak English, i am happy that i will meet so many new and great people, and i am happy that i have this experience..

Güt night ..

Talk to you soon

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Mracen pogled sokriva
Edno misticno i tesko minato.
Patuvanje vo idnina
I kopnez za poubav pocetok
Prepoznavam vo nejzinata nasmevka.
Patista, kraevi, padovi,
Isprepleteni sonovi, silen kopnez
I nemir vo dusata
Se obelezje na nejzinata minata borba
So samata sebe...

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Jas sum senka vo nokta.
Koja bara razlicni oblici na svetlina,
Onamu kade sto mrakot e edinstven gospodar.
Jas sum vozvisen privid
Na nepoznatoto i lazno svedostvo
Koe na onie koi ziveat vo temnina
Im nudi zrak spokojstvo.
Jas sum son koj prodava iliuzii
Na smrtnici osiromaseni so kopnez.
Jas sum vrisok,
Koj gi budi najnevinite detski dusicki
Zemajki im kapka mir.
Jas sum samo izguben talkac vo nokta,
Koj cela svoja sreka ja dal na bespomosnite.
Talkac koj opstojuva za nokta I mesecinata
Koja I dava sila da postoi i da se nadeva
Deka zvukot na teskoto disenje vo nokta
Naskoro ke prestane...

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Od son ,
Se izdigase nejzinata nasmevka,
Iskrena, a skrsena,
Ubava, a zaboravena;
...vecna, a zaledena...

Od srekata,
Se izdigaa zelbite,
Se prepletuvaa zivotite,
Se nasmevnuvaa taznite;
...propagaa nevinite...

Od kopnezot,
Se izdigaa strastite,
Se brisea potrebite,
Se rusea momentite;
...nasmeani ostanuvaa samo zaljubenite...

Od pepel,
Se izdigase nejzinoto ime,
Iscrtano nad zivotot,
Skrseno vo ocajot,
Zarobeno vo spomeni;
...zabelezano za vekovi...

Od krajot,
Se izdigase pocetokot,
Se ranea nadezite,
Se rusea svetovite,
Se povtoruvaa denovite;
...isceznuvaa sekundite...